MY LOST MAIDEN

I just can't take away my eyes out of her

There something about her that makes me shiver

Her smile, so genuine

She's so amazin'

Seventeen years of admiration is crazy

Forgetting her makes me my heart hazy

But what can i do, we're not even friends

I just hope her heart bends,

Pointing to where my heart is looking

'Coz she's what I'm always hoping

Every chapter of my life,

She's in every page

The truth cuts like a knife

She will never ever cross in my sight

I will end this stupidity

But liking her will not lost its validity

'coz even she's already taken

She'll always be my lost maiden.

Come CLEAN

Who wants to get clean? As in totally clean, inside and out. Zero germs. Clean conscience.

It is easy to clean your body but it is hard to clean the inside of you. We do sometimes do crazy things in life or do some bad decisions that make us go insane. Cleaning our conscience is such a difficult thing to do. It has something to do with your faith. Clearly, your faith strengthens your mind to do good and make your conscience as clean as it can be.

Lately, I'm very preoccupied and my mind is all mixed up. Your mind can be so very bad and naughty. I can't help thinking bad thoughts and crazy imagination. I tried to suppress that feeling but it will just go back to the way it was. I was a bit hysteric about this unlikely feeling, so I examine myself of what am I doing and thinking and why do my mind is exposing itself to scenes that are beyond acceptable.

My mind is already corrupted and I am cleaning it right away. I meditate so that I can easily get rid those nasty things in my head. I pray and strengthen my faith, in that way no evil things can break in easily into my fragile mind.

It's nice to live CLEAN.

Tangled

This past few years I was very incompetent and not progressive. Everything was a mess, I am a mess. It turns out that I was not doing the things that I should suppose to do. Now, I'm stuck and tangled. I'm trying to smooth-en things up but there is some force that dragging me down. Maybe, I'm just hysteric and delusional that's why I'm was not able to follow the path that I supposed to go.
Everything I do is a waste of time. I'm really trying to value the time that I have left. Every second counts and every idea that pops out in my brain are very precious.

Doing this study is very hard for me, I'm not that good in doing research but I know deep inside me that I can. Every encouragement I get from very people I met, is a great tool in finishing it. I'm very hopeful that I will be able to finish it in due time and will be very proud to myself when that day comes.

Determination will give me more strength and the love that I get from my family and friends will boost my wisdom to do the unthinkable and extraordinary.

CELEBRATE LIFE!

Let's get a toss for our LIFE!

As I was watching pictures of a baby with her family celebrating her nativity, I reminisce how amazing life is. The baby's look, the joy you see in her family's eyes and the bountiful greetings from their friends, it was so mesmerizing. In that certain moment, I just have awaken my senses to cherish every second I have to live my life.

I am not good in handling my life. It is a flowing journey. I have merits but also I have downfalls. There are times, I'm too harsh in my existence but I was too stupid in not realizing sooner that I should be more mellow and soft.

We should celebrate LIFE! Have 'F' in LIFE because GOD gave it to us or else will be living a LIE. 'F' is for FAITH, we should have faith in GOD in everything because all the things we have experienced no matter how happy or sad, God has a perfect reason for it. So, savor every moment in your life and just be surprised in every detail your life has been.

PARACHUTE

It's been two days now that I've been carried away with the song "Parachute". Have you heard of it? Well, the song has a good beat that's why I'm in groove with it. Anyways, the chorus lines 'I don't need a parachute, baby if I've got you...You gonna catch me if I fall down..' kinda give me things to ponder. I never have a love life since I was born. Maybe, I'm afraid of the hurt love is bound to but never I have attempted to be crazy in love with someone. So I was wondering if the lyrics crossed my mind to exactly find the match of my life.? Well, I'm still scared. Maybe I really need a parachute, because no one will catch me if ever I fall down. Sad... But the thing is I can't afford to buy a parachute, so I guess it'll be the end.

Lonesome day

Can you believe it?? Today is my birthday. I already spent 23 years of my life here on earth, and now it will be turning 24. I really don't know what will happen to me this certain year but I'm hoping for a better outcome and better yet a successful career for me plus love life (grins).

This day is not the same as the birthdays I've celebrated. This day is such a lonesome day, there's no much greeting, no party, no food.. It's just me and myself celebrating this momentous day. I just find it weird to be alone and melancholic on your day. But I am joyful because I have a wonderful family with me and cheerful friends that always there beside me.

They said, if it's your birthday you should make a wish. My wish??.. Can't think of any but I'm sure that I'm hoping that this very day will rain, it always rain on my birthday and I really love rains.

Happy Birthday to me!

.somewhere down the beach.

Have you have long walks along the beach with the sun shining hotly above you? Well, you really don't want to have sun burns or have skin cancer but absurdly I enjoy walking on the beach when the sun is up. I don't worry about my 1-year whitening regimen to be wasted but the thing is I enjoy the scenery, the waves, the sea, the sun, the sand, the people swimming and of course the moments you have in the beach.

I am not really into beaches but it just happened that it was my landlady's birthday and she invited us to go to the beach and celebrate her birthday there. Her aristocratic family was there and there were only three of us from our boarding house attended her beach party. We're a bit shy, knowing that her family is in the high society whereas, we are only struggling college students hoping to have good things in life. But anyways, we don't make it as hindrance to enjoy the beach and the scenery and the yummy foods that they brought. *smiles*



This is me with my half-fake smile due to the super duper hot temperature.. but infairness, the view is amazing!



Playing with the waves, it is really fun.

My artwork, scribbles with the sand. Guess, what's the figure?


The three survivors, having fun with the boats..



When i say "jump", you say how high... This is great!
Do you see the crab inside the hole?? The sun is too hot, it will cook him alive.. So better hide.




Syrah and Mayang, after a bagful of food...
Rocks and ruins.. it's really a struggle.
I own this land... Joke!! Look at my face, it is so ugly!
It was a fun day.. I hope I can do this again. Bye.