Time To Change

I will try to make a change in my life. Starting this very moment, little by little I will help myself transform into a better person free from undesired imagination, and unhealthy living. I know this would be a difficult challenge for me but I will try to conquer my fear of facing the truth, facing the reality. I need to be happy that's why I'm working myself to become a better individual. I don't want myself to fall from the pit of my reckless acts and thoughts. This is really a time for change and I will make sure I will succeed.

P.S. For every failure I made with this plan, I'll make sure there will be a corresponding punishment. Don't worry this is for my own good. Aja!

10 Things You Should Know About Me

I'm a mysterious person, yet not so obvious because I tend to hide my feelings and wrap it up my joyful face. Now, I'll try to reveal some things you probably don't know about me. I hope you can know me better while reading this.

1. I have a wild imagination. Yes, literally wild.. My mind thinks weird things and sometimes I can't imagine why I am thinking it.. Pathetic!

2. I am afraid to talk. Funny isn't it? For those who know me, I am a person who loves to talk but I'm afraid of it. Why? It's because sometimes I am not careful with my words. I have hurt many people with my words I don't intend to burst out but it did. Yes, I am tactless.. That's the right word!

3. I love silence. Even though I am noisy, I really love when I feel silence. During these times I can talk with myself and reflect the things I've done to myself. It means I'm way too emotional.. But I'm not that emo person you meet along the side of our campus or along the street..*smiles* I love emoting especially when I'm in nature.

4. I intend to hate someone because of their action and behavior. The wrong thing here, I don't like to confront them because I don't want to hurt them. And the result is I ended hurting myself. Pathetic again!

5. I am a procrastinator. Yes, sad to say I waste time doing unnecessary things. I sometimes make plans but I will not work. I'm very awful with regard to this matter. I have no sense of direction because I tend to forgot what I'm supposed to do. I have a poor time management but I'm working to end this attitude. Pray for me!

6. I don't know to express my feelings. I'm really introvert but I am mistaken to be extrovert because that's how they see me.

7. I'm a failure in terms of love. It's ironic that sometimes I give advices to my friends about love but honestly, I never experienced it. I just studied the love life of my friends and applied it to them. I don't want to be rejected that's why I don't want to involve myself with this kind of things because I believe I will end up being rejected. How close-minded I am but that's how it is.

8. I keep the memories of the people I met: my family, friends, board mates, classmates etc. in my heart. I don't want to forget them and I don't want to lose them. They are the treasures that I always cherish for the rest of my life.

9. I don't look back if I am not called by my name. This is the reason why sometimes people mistakenly say that I am snobbish . I love my name because my parents give it to me that's why I respect it. So, you should respect people by calling their names.

10. I always want to be happy. I am working hard to achieve the happiness I want to experience in my life.

Fighting over yourself

An Article by Alvin Soon. Posted at Life Coaches Blog: Improve Your Life.

http://lifecoachesblog.com/2007/01/29/are-you-fighting-yourself/

Are You Fighting Yourself?

Mon, Jan 29, 2007

Are you fighting yourself?

After talking to him for a few minutes, I knew that he’d be difficult to coach. While he didn’t realize it consciously, at some level he didn’t really want to change. Maybe he felt it would be too much work, maybe he was afraid of the unknown…maybe he was afraid of actually succeeding.

How did I know?

After having successes and failures with helping people make shifts in their lives, I began to see the patterns between people who changed more readily versus those who didn’t.

Those who change more easily have inner congruence; they have their inner selves aligned in ways that help them make the shift. Those that don’t have inner congruence find it difficult; no matter how much they think they want to change, a part of them doesn’t. They sabotage themselves by taking one step forward and two steps back.

What Are The Signs of Self-Sabotage?

How do you know when someone’s spending too much energy fighting themselves?

1) When they love their problems too much.

When you hear someone talk endlessly about their problems, especially in dramatic and sometimes even boastful ways; watch out! They may say they want to change, but they’re still enjoying the secondary gain they get from having this problem; it could be anything from having an excuse to get off the hook to getting attention.

2) When they argue exactly why suggestions to change won’t work.

Instead of wanting to listen and test new solutions out, they shoot down any suggestions with reasons why they might work for others but not for them. They only say they want to change when they’re obviously fighting it, that’s because they really want things to remain the same.

3) When they focus too much on negative causes and effects than positive intentions and outcomes.

Instead of having their eyes forward to create what they want in the future, they want to go further and further back into the past and dig out root causes of all their problems. The more obsessed this person is with finding out exactly why they’re messed up, the less energy they have to discover just how much better they can be.

How To Turn Self-Sabotage Into Self-Empowerment

If you’ve been self-sabotaging yourself or know someone who is, here is how you can turn self-sabotage into self-encouragement.

1) Fall in love with your strengths.

Everyone has strengths, whether you see it or not. You could stare at a 50kg dumb-bell all day long moaning about how you couldn’t possibly carry it, even explore with a sympathetic person the past origins of why you couldn’t. Or you could start exercising your present strength with a 5kg dumb-bell, knowing that if you keep focusing on working out, one day you’ll be pushing 50 and beyond.

2) Be willing to test out new solutions..

If you want to change, be willing to do new things you’ve never done before…that’s what change means, doesn’t it?

3) Focus on what you want to happen in the future.

We live in the present and can only go into the future. Milton Erickson once said, ‘insight into the past may be somewhat educational. But insight into the past isn’t going to change the past’. Decide to focus more on solutions versus problems. Look forward and answer the question, ‘if you could have the future anyway you wanted it, how would you want it to be?’

Here’s The Guiding Key To Shifting Self-Sabotage

After reading this article, you might recognize someone you know, or times in the past you’ve had moments of self-sabotage. Realize that even those times are now over, and you are bigger than thoughts and reactions you might once have had.

To key is, in the words of Robert Dilts, to shift people from learned hopelessness, helplessness and worthlessness to have hope for the future, a sense of capability and responsibility, and a sense of self-worth and belonging.

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My life nowadays is full of uneasiness and regrets over the past. I am depressed because of what's happening to me right now plus the moments I'm pitying myself. Maybe, the steps written in the article will help me renew my life and will be able to start a new life. I should bury the past, and continue living with my life and prepare for my future. That would certainly help!

Artwork

This artwork was made by my board mate's little brother. He used "Paint", a simple picture-editing program. He combined ovals and circles, then filled it with those colors which fits his expression for that certain moment.

I just love the abstract effect.. Cool! :D

My Creation

After 5 long hours of hard work, finally I am done with my mobile pouch bag. I crocheted it with a black and white crochet thread. Take a look at what I've done. I hope you like it!

KILL HIM!

[This poem is dedicated to the person who always annoy me these days.]


Voice as loud as a trumpet;
When he sings your eardrums explode;
I wish he could ride on the magic carpet
And brought him to a place where no one else abode.

His whole being is a pain in my ass;
My blood rises every time I sense his presence;
I wish I could put him in a glass
And throw him in the sea of fire, that is his essence.

Oh, please vanish him!
Kill him, I plead.
So silence can live again.

The Frog Song [korean]

The first action song I learn was "Sampung Palaka" (Ten Frogs). I just smiled when I remembered how ecstatic I was singing and dancing in tune with this song. But I was amazed when I saw a korean action song similar to what I used to know. The actions were more difficult and complicated than our simple grooves and actions. Here's the video:




The korean version so cute. I love how they animated it.. :)