Struggle

Soft and mellow

Everything touched is hollow

Hiding in the shadow

Embraced in sorrow

Judged outside

Even they don't know you inside

Tiptoeing side by side

Slowly dying inside

Growing with a shell

Waiting to be well

In the light holding still

Hoping not to be ill

Living in everyone's expectation

Growing with little attention

Running in adoration

Softly weakened by domination

Slightly peeping the world

For every move will be bold

The past was sold

The future will be untold

Gibber

There is a sudden change in this very moment of my life. I don't know if the next minute it will completely be different or will be worsened. I am just amazed of how things had completely changed in just a moment. Well, that's how life is. It is full of surprises. I don't know what will happen next in my journey  but this could be the start for a great change. A change that I needed to be woken up from the great sleep.

FAILURE BUT NEVER SURRENDER

I always fail to do what I always plan. In my actions, there is always a mistake. I thought I was tough to fight the temptations I was involved but I was wrong... I am still fragile, and was easily broken. This failure will not be marked as a failure. This is just a step for my success to fight the darkness that I was trapped from the beginning of time, the darkness that I created. This is not an easy battle. I have failed many times against this fight but quitting is not in my blood. I was born to stand up and I will not surrender until I'll see the light! To God be the glory!

MY LOST MAIDEN

I just can't take away my eyes out of her

There something about her that makes me shiver

Her smile, so genuine

She's so amazin'

Seventeen years of admiration is crazy

Forgetting her makes me my heart hazy

But what can i do, we're not even friends

I just hope her heart bends,

Pointing to where my heart is looking

'Coz she's what I'm always hoping

Every chapter of my life,

She's in every page

The truth cuts like a knife

She will never ever cross in my sight

I will end this stupidity

But liking her will not lost its validity

'coz even she's already taken

She'll always be my lost maiden.

Come CLEAN

Who wants to get clean? As in totally clean, inside and out. Zero germs. Clean conscience.

It is easy to clean your body but it is hard to clean the inside of you. We do sometimes do crazy things in life or do some bad decisions that make us go insane. Cleaning our conscience is such a difficult thing to do. It has something to do with your faith. Clearly, your faith strengthens your mind to do good and make your conscience as clean as it can be.

Lately, I'm very preoccupied and my mind is all mixed up. Your mind can be so very bad and naughty. I can't help thinking bad thoughts and crazy imagination. I tried to suppress that feeling but it will just go back to the way it was. I was a bit hysteric about this unlikely feeling, so I examine myself of what am I doing and thinking and why do my mind is exposing itself to scenes that are beyond acceptable.

My mind is already corrupted and I am cleaning it right away. I meditate so that I can easily get rid those nasty things in my head. I pray and strengthen my faith, in that way no evil things can break in easily into my fragile mind.

It's nice to live CLEAN.

Tangled

This past few years I was very incompetent and not progressive. Everything was a mess, I am a mess. It turns out that I was not doing the things that I should suppose to do. Now, I'm stuck and tangled. I'm trying to smooth-en things up but there is some force that dragging me down. Maybe, I'm just hysteric and delusional that's why I'm was not able to follow the path that I supposed to go.
Everything I do is a waste of time. I'm really trying to value the time that I have left. Every second counts and every idea that pops out in my brain are very precious.

Doing this study is very hard for me, I'm not that good in doing research but I know deep inside me that I can. Every encouragement I get from very people I met, is a great tool in finishing it. I'm very hopeful that I will be able to finish it in due time and will be very proud to myself when that day comes.

Determination will give me more strength and the love that I get from my family and friends will boost my wisdom to do the unthinkable and extraordinary.

CELEBRATE LIFE!

Let's get a toss for our LIFE!

As I was watching pictures of a baby with her family celebrating her nativity, I reminisce how amazing life is. The baby's look, the joy you see in her family's eyes and the bountiful greetings from their friends, it was so mesmerizing. In that certain moment, I just have awaken my senses to cherish every second I have to live my life.

I am not good in handling my life. It is a flowing journey. I have merits but also I have downfalls. There are times, I'm too harsh in my existence but I was too stupid in not realizing sooner that I should be more mellow and soft.

We should celebrate LIFE! Have 'F' in LIFE because GOD gave it to us or else will be living a LIE. 'F' is for FAITH, we should have faith in GOD in everything because all the things we have experienced no matter how happy or sad, God has a perfect reason for it. So, savor every moment in your life and just be surprised in every detail your life has been.